Unconcious And Me
Ubiquitous darkness prevails up to the visible proximity of my eyes .
I , still wrapped in my desperate thoughts , choose to continue pace with my heavy toes . I hardly have any clue of the 5 W’s and 1 H of my journey. All I know is that I want to diffuse myself in the darkness like the particles of salt in water.
“SHUBHANGI!” a loud noise shatters the silence .
I hastily turned back , but unable to locate anyone except a white dot reflecting rays of brightness , resonating in the dark atmosphere .
I am taken aback when the white dot transformed into a pure white angel , so alluring and dignified, that I am unable to even blink my eyelids .
“Bonjour SVJ!! You are the most optimistic person , then what has happened to you ? Why are you in sombre state ? ” the white angel inquired .
A salty tear rolled down my cheek .
” I’ll tell you everything , but first tell me about yourself .” I requested.
” My child! I am your subconscious . I am your hidden thinking, your power circuitry and your truest potential,” retorted the white angle.
Oh my gosh !!!! My real self is standing and interacting with me . My ‘ dopamine and serotonin hormones ‘ are now sprinting in my blood .
” Ummm…. you are my real inner reflection. ” I said while tasting few drops of salty tears into my mouth .
” Yeah ! now abide your promise and tell me reason of sorrow on your face .” My subconscious decently reminded me .
” I don’t know why but my life has become a burden for me . I am of no good .Whatever I do automatically comes out to be wrong . I am futile and garbage . People are creating histories and phew! what am I doing ?” I collapsed amid.
A volcano of emotions erupted and lava of tears spilled.
Continuing in equilibrium , I briefed furthur ” The guilt of not fulfilling my aspirations and reach where I want makes me doom-and-gloomer . ”
” Hahahha this is the matter . You silly girl ! Now I will show you who are you ? why you are here? your desires , identity and destiny are waiting for you. COME!!! ” subconscious said while pulling my hands .
IKTU BIKTU JHIM PATUTA….ZIIIIPPP…ZAAAPPPP….SNAAAPPP…CLAAAPP…
6 YEARS HENCE………….
” Where have you taken me to ?This place is quite strange . I have never been here. It is a big bunglow ” I nipped him.
“Sshh…that beautiful lady sitting there is you . We are in future;see those prizes , medals and other accolades increasing the value of your walls . These are won by you in different arenas .” He paused sighed out .
” Your destiny has clandestines for you in the form of your spouse , your success , wealth…to name a few .Your parents are your biggest wealth and you are thinking to leave them in pain throughout their lives .” He yelled at me this time .
” The almighty has sent you in this world adhoc .” He stopped now glancing at me .
While the world sleeps , destiny plans the next move to take .
Puffed , I sat down on the road , speechless . At the other moment only , my subconscious came and persuaded me to cheer up.
” I wanted to ignite a spark again in you , my girl. That’s why I took you in the future .You are destined person .If you want to learn how to live , learn from differently abled persons , or , those living in oldage homes , or , orphanages .” He explained .
And now we landed in the heaven . The atmosphere here is hypnotising .
The waterfalls are as soft as cotton , the butterflies spreading colors of happiness , the sun , the moon , the stars , the blossoming flowers , birds flying limitless and what not.
“You are the sun – determined and punctual; emitting loads of heat as energy ; spreading its wide purview in which no-one can think of entering also .
You are the moon -so calm and composed ; a symbol of love ; shining bright with its own light and skills .
You are the bird – not bounded by time ,place or situation ;whose only aim is flying deep.
You are waterfalls , flowers , butterflies – a source of spreading happiness to others.
You are the mountain- holding head high in adverse circumstances also .” The subconscious illustrated to me .
” You are the universe ; everything, every concept is deeply absorbed in you . Just you need a connection with your inner self, and you will see you are THE BRAHMA , THE VISHNU AND THE MAHESHWARA .” He successfully completed his mission of opening the blocked arteries of my heart.
My eyes are filled with tears , but , this time with tears of happiness.
“Thank you so much for making me realise my value . I promise I’ll never complain now and will always be optimistic .” I thanked my subconscious .
With the bang of alarm , my eyes gradually connected with reality .
Only then I realised that twisting on couch and recollecting past reminiscences last night dozed me off.
I smiled , congratulated me for my new and upgraded version and thanked my subconscious .
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood ,
And sorry I could not travel ,
I took 1 less travelled by ,
And that has made all the difference…