Poetry 2016 Longlist, Sakshy Rai

Love With The Monster

A monster stole years from my life
A monster feeding on me like parasite
He snatched away those innocent smiles
He smashed away my dreams
alive
Inhabiting me at my own will
Insidious hideous going to kill
Loved me smoothly and coyly
Feasted on my soul slyly

Who to blame? Whom to claim?
My own choice to fill me
My own choice to kill me

Like Phoenix from ashes he rose
Like devil from angel he rose
Nor he embraces me all at once
Neither sets me free for once
Approaches diabolically, I loose my stance
Enters me, leaving my senses sans
I greet him with cascading tears
I cater him with grief and fear

Whom to blame? Whom to claim?
My own choice to kill me
My own choice to fill me

I met him when I lost myself
I met him with no self respect
I met him fed up of people's world
I fed him mess of my own world
I chose him to escape ramblings of life
I chose him perhaps to be killed every night

Whom to blame? Whom to claim?
My own choice to kill me
My own choice to fill me

Fault is mine to stay with him,they say!
Should cut him off! Move on, they say!
Wish they said less and understood him a little !
Wish they said less and understood me a little !
Wish they could offer hands to me!
Wish they could make me wander free !

Left with thee in cacophony of  inaudible voices
Left with thee in labyrinth of  torment and vices